Today is a time of reflection

When I say "reflection" I can very easily allow myself to fall prey to fretting over past sins/mistakes.  You know -- the "should haves" - "could haves" - "only ifs" - "wish I hads".  I know we have all been down that road - some more than others.  In my first post I confessed that I have the horrible habit of worrying - not just about today, but about yesterday and tomorrow!  I am trying to daily focus on THIS day.  What is my purpose/job today?  How can I be effective today?  How will I demonstrate Christ's love in my life?  I find that when I focus on those things I don't have time to worry or fret.  But, it is very diificult for me - but I remind myself that nothing is too difficult for God.  The difficult part is ALLOWING GOD.  Why is we all want to be the masters of our fate?  How many times have you said:  "I can do that all by myself"  -- "I don't need any help from ANYone"  Speaking from experience, the hardest decision becomes the easiest when I recognize I surrender to God's perfect will.  And, it is at this point of surrender that I find myself thinking:  "Why do I struggle so hard to maintain control?"  Relinquishing control gives such freedom - freedom to enjoy those things that were overlooked because I am trying to control everything -- to be a happy, joyful woman filled with Christ's love -- to be a wife who brings blessings to her husband -- to be a mother and grandmother who is available to enjoy the small things and offer assistance and advice when requested.  I want to be known as God's woman.